Friday, January 10, 2014

for the time when loneliness makes you feel small...

how does an extrovert wake up one morning and feel so incredibly lonely?
what is she to do when she finds herself crying for reasons she can't explain?
how does she pinpoint the restless that stirs violently in her soul?
and who does she turn to for encouragement?

it just so happens i found the answer to these questions this week.  but not until i unplugged from social media for a while. 

i find it rather amusing how you can have thousands of 'friends' through social media and still feel lonely.  and you can have 757 likes and 88 comments on one of your posts and still not feel connected with a single soul. 

social media has the ability to make your life feel small. 

this week, instead of moments wasted scrolling newsfeeds and pictures, i thumbed over words that breathed fresh air into these dry bones. the same words came in various forms.  one day on the way home from work over the radio.  one evening as i was reading a new book on my kindle.  one morning over coffee as my thumb landed in the very place that steadied my heart.  and then tonight, through the words of a song.

it wasn't until i unplugged on sunday, that i felt the restlessness in my soul.  the loneliness in my heart.  the smallness of my life. 

i want my life to count for something.   something that makes a mark for the Kingdom.  something that brings Him glory.  and if i being honest, i want that something to be big. 

but here is what i have learned this week, i have to continue to allow Him to work in the small areas of my life before He will ever be able to use me in something bigger. 

in every situation and circumstance of your life, God is always doing a thousand different things that you cannot see and you do not know.  ~john piper

in case you didn't catch that, in every situation of your life God is doing a thousand different things.  in other words, He is doing immeasurably more than you could imagine.

sometimes, He reveals His work to us.  often times, we are unaware of the behind-the-scenes action that He is crafting through the circumstances of our life. 

we must only trust in Him.  for He works all things together for good.  and He does it purposefully and skillfully and carefully and lovingly. 

i may not understand why i am in this season of loneliness and restlessness, but I trust Him.  and trusting Him means knowing that He is doing a thousand things in and through my situations and circumstances to bring glory to God. 

 a thousand things.  immeasurably more....yes, Lord!

now to him who is able to do
 immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
 according to his power that is at work within us
ephesians 3:20

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